will you listen to me?

im writing this post, at 1am, cos im really upset. im having murder thoughts going thru my head. im so sick of her throwing insults at me, accusing me of things i never implied or do, all she does is go on everyday on how she wants me out of her life and how im a useless idiot and i do admit i may not know everything i shd but i try im just so so at wits end and im crying my eyes out every night. i think about getting rid of her so seriously, i think abt ways i can get rid of this problem, non really good but its al i can think of i know if i explode and just let it out, i will end up taking a knife and stabbing someone and im so close to doing that and my whole life wll be ruined but im just lost and its already screwed up enough as it is.

why does nobody udnerstand, that my nose is buried in the computer, in my own room 24/7, not cos i just want to be lazy, but cos im trying so hard just to build my own lil world away from all this crap.the more they do this they mroe i just retreat into my own world. or maybe that im just.. putting out a cry for help cos of them and this is the only place i find people who care. or my be nobody cares. i feel liek buying a one way ticket to he most remote place in the world and not coming back.

whenever i tell people, aimi or whoever my problem in the past, everyone wud just flick it off as im being overreactive, or im just asking for attention, but why does nobody take this seriously? nobody understands how desperate i am, how im going to just put a knife through someone if nobody just even bothers to just LISTEN TO ME! JUST GOD DAMN FUCKING LISTEN TO ME! i feel really alone even tho im surrounded by people. i feel that nobody udnerstands me even tho im explaining the most obvious thing. and then agn, sometimes i dont knwo wat my problem is, i just feel insanely furious and want to go on a rampage.








please somebody help me


listen to me.

How Do You Keep Warm This Winter?

OMG, this ad is so cute! watch it! Ill finish commenting about it below the vid so I dont spoil the show :)






CUTE RIGHT?!
OMG I so want one of those cute fat pink men to hug me!

The part when it showed the kid bouncing up and down on what I presume is a trampoline, the first time I watched the ad I thought it was still the pink fat guy and I was thinking..WTF PAEDOPHILE EWWW! =\

But anyways, what with the stormy windy winter weather and all these days, I definitely could do with ones of those chubby hugger thingys! ^^ Right now, I just bury myself under 3 massive quilts and stay in bed for as long as I can every morning hehe! Though I wouldnt mind a hot guy to hug in bed.. well hot in both senses lol.

I find that rice tends to warm you up better than pasta, but that doesnt mean Im going to eat less pasta!

Pasta FTW always.

What are your keep-warm winter secrets? (be it manchester-related, food related..etc whatever!)

Safari 4.0 Review

What can I say =)

I just recently downloaded the latest version of Macs flagship internet browser and I am pretty happy to say the least!

The moment I opened up the browser for the first time, it greeted me with a nice little fanfare and welcome message (see first 2 pics of this post, or go to http://www.apple.com/safari/welcome , to watch it =P) Not a useful thing per se, but it was a nice start lol.

After the welcome message flashed, it brought me to this new feature 'Top Sites' where by my most frequently visited sites are laid out in a thumbnail pattern. As you can see, Facebook = ichiban =D! (and the rest in no particular order)

You can view it in large, medium or small thumbnail sizes...

medium...

small...

Look Irene! your blog is on my top visited list! lol.

You can view your top favs in CoverFlow view, oh, and your history too. clicking the coverflow thumbnail will open up whatever that page was.

And the most important thing about web browsing?

Safari 4 is damn plucking fast. Blogs with heavy graphics such as xiaxue.blogspot.com, take say, 10 or so seconds to load? maybe more.

Safari 4 does it in half that time. Lighter sites - instantaneously.

I am one happy internet user! =D

Theres smart address bar (predicts and suggests websites as you type, pretty accurate! and as usual, damn fast) and tabbed browsing that you can arrange and manipulate however...

Of course, not all the things here are the new changes, theres like 150 all up but most are just tiny things here and there. Either way, Safari 4, Im in love with you <3

On a PC? no prob - safari is available for PC users too so we all can share the joy ^^ Go to apple.com to dl :)

So what are you waiting for?

QUICK GO DOWNLOAD! FREE TOO! WHO DOESNT LIKE A FREEBIE?! =D

Just Cookin' =)

Making my lunch now.. some korean noodles! So I did some camwhoring while waiting for the water to boil. hehe!

OM NOM NOM!

Guess what Reena is doing these days...

Ive been greening my fingers!

Ive been growing a pot plant (ie plant in a pot, not dope as some people might suggest!) lately and to be honest, its actually quite easy! and they grow well too. 

I do admit Ive been neglecting them cos you know, taking care of living things isnt really my forte (as some of you may know I accidently starved my luo han fish to death by accident when I was 15....) However, progress is progress nontheless and heres some pics of my lettuce/radish, whatever it is, ive forgotten cos there were 2 packs of seeds to begin with. oh well, surprise I suppose at the end lol.

My pot is currently 2 weeks old and very cute ^^v







Snoopy dug up half =_= I managed to put them back into the soil and smack Snoops over the head after.

I think its radish.... 

Nice crispy fresh radish leaves Im presuming.

Rising to the sun!

*sticks up a green thumb*